It's amazing what you can do to turn things around, simply by being aware. I knew I was making myself miserable yesterday, but I couldn't do anything about it except let things flow. I don't know if it's clinical, but I'm up and down all the time (as you know if you've been here long). I'm not sure I really want a diagnosis, at least not today when everything seems more or less groovy.
So, as predicted, I'm all jolly and stuff today. I had some help, I won't deny that. One of the benefits of laying it all out here, exposing every emotion no matter how raw (okay, I don't really go that far), is that people care. I still have a hard time believing it, but it's true. And it helps more than they know.
I got the fan out last night and sat in front of it. That might have helped, or maybe it was just the fact that I was doing nothing at the time except sitting. I can't have the fan on me when I work. Papers tend to blow every which way, and with my chaotic vertical filing system, it's hard enough to keep track of what I'm doing. So, sittin' and chillin' was the way to go.
As much as I love and crave the hot weather, a little relief would not be unwelcome. Let's not go overboard with the cooling off period, though. It seems like it's been November forever.