If thereís anything Iím really good at, itís taking a little pebble of doubt and worry and turning it into a mountain, bypassing the molehill stage altogether. If you need something to worry about, just tell me your problems, and Iíll construct a worst-case scenario that will make them seem ten times worse than they are. I have loads of experience and a certain natural aptitude.
While Iím not very good at fighting dragons, and I often fight grasshoppers as if they were dragons, today I tried a new tactic in the war on negative thinking. I tried not thinking at all, with some modest success. Somehow the day went by with minimal sign of mountain or molehill, until I collapsed with exhaustion at the end and looked up to see what I had done.
The only way I know for sure that I accomplished anything today is by the big pile of outgoing mail on the corner of my desk. I hope I did everything right, because I donít remember doing any of it, specifically. Yet there it is, a testament to the fact that keeping busy is the best way to keep from stewing about problems, the ones I can control and the ones I canít.
Of course, the best way to dampen worries about problems I can control is to do something about them. Like solve them, for example (or hand them off to someone else, always one of my preferred options). I couldnít do much about what was on my mind today, so I tried to keep it off my mind. I couldnít have concentrated enough to do anything that required concentration, but I could keep busy with busywork.