Relieved. Rejuvenated. Empowered. You could run a small factory on the energy I have tonight. It’s such a high to get through the hardest part of the hardest month of the year, and to know (to a reasonable certainty) that I’ve done everything I needed to do, and done it well. Or at least, well enough.

Depleted. Spent. Drained. It wouldn’t take a very big spatula to scrape up what’s left of me. I’ve poured everything I have into getting to the end of this deadly month in one piece, and I made it. Barely, but I made it.

Can you be totally depleted and energized at the same time? I think that probably happens to me every April (and a few other times a year). It’s a good thing it’s not any more often, because the empowerment part of the equation would be diminished. All that energy is based on fumes. I’m standing on something that probably won’t hold me up for very long.

I want to hibernate for about a week. But I also want to go run a marathon, like right now. Go figure.