Relieved. Rejuvenated. Empowered. You could run a small factory on the energy I have tonight. Itís such a high to get through the hardest part of the hardest month of the year, and to know (to a reasonable certainty) that Iíve done everything I needed to do, and done it well. Or at least, well enough.
Depleted. Spent. Drained. It wouldnít take a very big spatula to scrape up whatís left of me. Iíve poured everything I have into getting to the end of this deadly month in one piece, and I made it. Barely, but I made it.
Can you be totally depleted and energized at the same time? I think that probably happens to me every April (and a few other times a year). Itís a good thing itís not any more often, because the empowerment part of the equation would be diminished. All that energy is based on fumes. Iím standing on something that probably wonít hold me up for very long.