I really thought this was the day, but it turned out to be just another day like every other day for the last two weeks. I did do without any pain reliever until almost dark, and I lasted without the brace nearly as long. But as the day wore on, I wore out, and the pain came back. If Iíd got my Kaiser password in the mail today, I would have made an appointment. But I didnít, so I didnít.
Itís depressing, you know? To think the worst is over and then to have it come back and smack you like a frying pan in the face? Depressing. Not that I was all that confident earlier in the day. I sort of knew, somewhere in the back of my mind, that I was fooling myself. I really, really wanted to be better, and I kept up that myth for as long as I could make myself believe it. And Iíd probably do it again tomorrow and the day after, if I thought I could get away with it.