This was the day between the storms, and it was also the day my springtime allergies caught up with me and smacked me down. Itís not enough that my eyes are heavy from lack of sleep, but now theyíre also bearing the weight of everything thatís in the air, and thatís a lot right now. Plus, I grated an onion tonight, and that didnít help any.
As I was driving Mom home from the party last night I was feeling the burn in my eyes and thinking it was probably a product of too many late nights, all strictly speaking my own fault. It definitely didnít make it any easier to drive after dark, with all those bright headlines in my face and filling my rear view mirror. I might be about ready for my first eye exam since the new insurance kicked in. That should be fun.
Mostly I blame myself for everything that I find wrong in my life. I just donít do a very good job solving problems or resolving crises or taking care of myself. Itís a good thing Iím the only person Iím in charge of, because Iíd hate to think how anyone who depended on me would cope. Iíd like to think Iíd step up, but we canít be sure of that, can we?