It was all a big mistake. I'm not a morning person, and yet here I was at 6:30 (6:30! A!M!) running the payroll spreadsheets. With my eyes open! That's how the day started, but it didn't end as well. I was like a tightly wound watch that loses its spring at the exact moment you need to know the time. I spent most of the day with that zombie-like feeling I usually have only first thing in the morning.
The chain of events that led to my finding myself semi-comatose in the recliner at one o'clock in the afternoon began last night, when I forgot to turn the furnace down when I went to bed. I woke up an hour and a half too early this morning, sweating in the sheets and way to uncomfortable to stay there. So I got up.
Big mistake. And I'm not sure of my own motivation, so it's even worse. I often talk myself into feeling guilty for sleeping late, so the chance to get up early was too much of a temptation. Now I can be like all the good people, like my hardy midwestern ancestors who rose with the dawn and worked the fields all morning and ate big hunks of meat and potatoes at noon.
Sure, it was too hot to stay in bed — unless I threw off the blanket and comforter. Then I could have slept until the usual time and had a routine day. Then I wouldn't have spent the whole afternoon doing my best imitation as a useless lump (not that I'm not well-practiced at it).
Ah, but then I would have missed the sweetness of an afternoon nap. I was just going to sit for a minute, and suddenly I was closing my eyes and praying for the phone not to ring. Forty-five minutes later it did ring, and as often happens there was no one on the line, but that was long enough anyway.
Not that I jumped up and got back to work, because I was still stuck in low gear. But by this time I was clear-headed enough to rationalize that working that extra hour and half early in the morning probably entitled me to 45 minutes of relief in the afternoon. That's what I'm telling myself, at the same time I'm telling myself never to do it again.
Morning person? No, not exactly. It's only what I tell myself I should be.