Iím satisfied that I did the best I could with January, but Iím really looking forward to a fresh start in February. I know these are artificial boundaries that mean nothing, but I canít help it. Any excuse to reload and take a little better aim is good enough for me. If only I could restart this week, because I wasted my Monday and spent all of Tuesday trying not to fall any further behind.
January was a muddy mess of an ordeal for me, but it was good in one way. When I paid my utility bill yesterday, it was way down from last month. Iíd been working to keep the thermostat lower and bundle up more, and it helped. And Iíve been keeping to my resolution not to buy CDs and DVDs for myself, so Iím in a lot better shape financially than I was a month ago. Of course, that could probably be said about every January, because I spend so much every December.
Mostly, though, I can say that what had to be done in January got done in January, and with two days to spare at that. I know I can always say that at the end of January, but that doesnít mean I ever believe it halfway through. I tell myself, and I allow other people to tell me, and yet I still have doubts, always. I will again next year. No doubt about that.