If thereís a certain sameness to these late December days around here, itís probably a necessary monotony. If itís reflected in these entries, well, thatís my life right now, and I donít have a lot of leeway to fix it. Iím working longer hours than usual, with no end in sight. In a way, thatís good. Itís better to be too busy than to have nothing to do at all.
Thereís no relief just because the holiday rush is over, thatís for sure. In fact, as always, it starts to get more intense now. January has always been my busiest month, and now with two companies to account for instead of just one, I think Iíll be earning that modest bonus I thanked the Boss for today.
The hardest part is just trying to keep it together. I mean, I could easily lose my composure when little things go wrong. Thatís my pattern, but with a little extra effort I can overcome it. I do it because I have to. Things need to get done, and thereís no one else to do them.
Should I be complaining? Of course not. Does knowing that stop me? Of course not. I even got to the bank and the grocery store today, in the midst of all the commotion. And the extra cash allowed me to get more or less caught up on my personal bills for the first time in a while. Both my car insurance and car license bills are always due in early January, but for once Iím not sweating those out. Thatís worth a lot, even the extra hours at the grindstone.