I think today I blew every argument I made yesterday out of the water. The sun came out, and yet I still had the blues. I slept late, but I needed an hour’s nap in the middle of the afternoon (and in the middle of the race). And after conserving my energy all day yesterday, all I did today was sit around and do even less.

Still, I’m working on those things I talked about last week. I did a little exercising of my wretched, lumpy body this morning, and I’ve been very careful about what I’ve been eating for all of two whole days. Obviously, I can’t see much effect yet, except in the fact that I’m starting to feel better about my own attitude.

So why am I still a little down? I think it’s some kind of post-something something-or-other. There’s still so much uncertainty, and I always have a hard time dealing with that. I have personal income taxes to try to work out, and I have to find out how to get my driver’s license renewed before my birthday, even though the state DMV seems to have forgotten about me.

Mostly, it’s the same old thing. Work. I’m facing situations on two fronts — how well I did on the Big Project, and how well I’m going to do on day-to-day bill-paying until the next big check comes in. In other words, it’s still the same old story, and I’m looking forward so much to having the problems solved that I lose sight of the fact that maybe I can solve them myself, if I work at it. I’d have to be in a better frame of mind to do that, though.