Some days when I work the whole day it's what I want to be doing more than anything in the world. Today I did it out of obligation. Maybe it was the way the sun fought its way through the clouds today, but something had my mind on a tether, trying to drag it away from its duties.
It's best at times like this to let my mind wander and do things that don't require active engagement. I find I can tick off three or four items from the to-do list without so much as a singly fully-formed thought.
I guess I don't mind having a job that doesn't require full use of my head and heart. I have other uses for them, and nothing that anyone will derive more benefit from than I will myself. My choices aren't exactly what I ever dreamed they would be, but when I roll through a day with not much friction, I can live with the way things are.
And besides, I suppose the choices were there, if I'd known how to make them.