I've had a problem making phone calls all my life. I'm not sure how it started, but I do remember embarrassing moments on the phone, when I've been so tongue-tied that I froze in mid-sentence. Absolutely froze, so that the person on the other end had to wonder if they were talking to a person who had just suffered a catastrophic trauma of some kind.
This is ironic, because I love words. When I'm talking to the mirror, I'm downright eloquent. In the heat of passion, I'm a poet. But when I'm asking for something, I can't put two words together and get them in the right order.
The times when I've felt most inadequate have been either on the phone or in front of groups. Something about having to come up with the right thing to say just fries my brain, so I avoid those situations whenever possible. It's just that it often keeps me from getting what I want. I would probably still have an aching wisdom tooth if the Boss hadn't arranged for me to see his dentist the other day. When someone does something like that for me, I'm slavishly grateful. The nicest thing you can do for me is make a phone call that keeps me from having to make one myself.
So I will probably continue to live in this hovel, until either it becomes so unbearable that I force myself to find a place, or someone takes pity and takes over the search for me. I'm not too proud to accept help, just a little too self-conscious to ask for it.
This telephone phobia could be a detriment to my job, if the Boss wasn't aware of it. I have other qualities that make me valuable to the Company, so he overlooks some of my deficiencies. That's another thing I have to be grateful for. Since my strengths are in the areas where he needs the most help, the relationship works well.
We spent the whole week working on a specification he's writing for a government job, with dozens of revisions and tricky formatting problems that I was able to solve for him. He doesn't want to know how I do it, but he appreciates the results. As long as I can keep producing work that he thinks is good, he'll tolerate my reluctance to make a few phone calls.